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iw: 20210418
lu: 20231214

About me This site presents and catalogs my reading exploits, some thoughts, and some opinions. And, be I so bold as to hope⸻as Bane explains in scene 90 of Christopher and Jonathan Nolans' screenplay for The Dark Knight Rises:

Hope. Every man who has rotted here over the centuries has looked up to the light and imagined climbing to freedom. So simple. So easy. And, like shipwrecked men turning to sea water from uncontrollable thirst, many have died trying. I learned that there can be no true despair without hope.

it could, should, would eventually connect me to or with somebody. A hooman bean. But, it is all so, so tiresome. Nobody exerts themself, nobody wills to. What Ian Brady says of hoi polloi in The Gates of Janus, I agree with wholly. I'd thought it myself. Yet he had more successful relationships. Or at least the one. The lucky fucker. I am a pillar of iron, looming over the ever-rotting, ever-replenishing detritus, constituting the 99.99% of humankind.

Who am I? Many things, one thing, nothing. Pigeonholing me will fail⸻, He says! Pfff-ha! I'm, I'd guess, at best a 1e-4⸺1e-5 rather than a 1e-6. No genius, not overly special or different. One is what one does rather than what one self-prescribes oneself. As it goes, actions speak louder than words. Sooo, what do you do? Strike that. I'm a sucker for disappointment and hope, it would seem. Or have a suboptimal rela⸻, To what end?⸻an unhealth⸻, And what'd a healthy o⸻, an often submissive or masochistic, often self-righteous, and too often (Yes, when you question it, this makes little-to-no grammatical sen⸻, Objection! Your Honor, that is an outrageous stretch! It is far-fetched! An Etch-A-Sketch!) correctly predictive relationship with both, especially the former.
tldr; I'm a thoroughly embittered, disappointed, disheartened, despondent person lonesomely going through the motions with help of the arts, who likes to learn and do, so long as there is a decent goal. (Maybe?)

I used to listen to and through music obsessively. 80–95% of everything I'd listened to from 2012 to 2021 was logged at/with last.fm. If curious: 2.5e5 scrobbles, to use the its term; all achieved (It's still strange that people compete(d) to artificially scrobble the most.) natty, of course. I used to be on the cutting edge of the a few scenes: djent, technical deathcore, technical progressive metal, artsy-fartsy shred and guitar wankery. And I was seriously getting into jazz past few years, familiarizing myself, like I'd done with rock/metal, with the major and minor developments, and genre creators and expanders, or at least I'd like to have thought so. Both were processes, both were abruptly cut short. I also used to compose, used to enjoy composing, and listening too.
I like highly technical, (needlessly) intricate, and or brutal music. Broadly: metal, jazz, and classical; more narrowly: technical deathcore, bebop, baroque. I like abstract, 'modern' (or whatever contemporary goes for these days...), or (successfully) experimental shit like: Brian Ferneyhough (Who has a family name only a mother can pronounce.), Kaikhosru Shapurji Sorabji, Cecil Taylor, Milton Babbitt, Gonzalo Rubalcaba, Jacob Collier, and many, many (Not good with names, so don't hold it against me for not giving example when I can think of music and or album art instead.) other, ofter lesser knowns, scrounged up and around from Bandcamp. I have, or at least had, crystallized, acrid opinions on most, if not all, subgenres of the three aforementioned, and I readily and avariciously consoomed anything and everything, to form and opinion, broaden musical horizons. Some day I may get back to music fully. Some day... Update from 20230310 I have slowly begun listening to stuff again, not going to attempt to regain what is/was lost, or go back, but it's a start. And starting is the first step (when you've fallen of a cliff and were broken for 2 years 3 months, I guess)⸻, He's flatlining again! We're losing him! (It is, or will be, a process. . . )

I also have interests in a few areas of physics, chemistry, and mathematics, and in software engineering. Music, literature, knowledge/learning one could say are my passions. I can't well describe myself or talk about myself in general, so I won't any further. I don't define or constrain myself, who or what I am through my relation to others, objects, ideas, etc. I just am. If you don't get me and would like to, let me know me.

About this site URIs and clickables are in orange (and if I've killed all saturation⸻glhf!). This too close in hue, saturation, and luminosity color is used for rules. Is that too close?⸻Yes. Am I gonna do something about?⸻No. My depression is seeping into everything around me, so saturation is gone. Not doing anything about that either. Emphasization is intended through italicization. Intensification or different emphasization⸻through emboldening. Inessential parentheticals abide in underlined text. Other voice or third emphasization through intended through grayscaling (and italicization, because I'm not consistent, it would seem). Dates of initial writing and last update are given in smaller fontsize in gray, respectively: IW and LU. I am a quarter flattered to have been stolen from or copied, without acknowledgement a dozen or so times.
Unless stated or indicated, all text herein is mine. I permit its usage under the CC-BY-NC-SA 4.0 license.

Changelog

20240322
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    aoc: 2315.1, 2313.1, 2313.2, 2321.1, 2321.2, 2314.1
    project euler: 099
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      The Book Eaters. Sunyi Dean.
      On Revolution. Hannah Arendt.
      Portrait of a Murderer. Anne Meredith, Anthony Gilbert.
      Cutting to the Core: Exploring the Ethics of Contested Surgeries. David Benatar.

20240210
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    marxism update table1, add table2
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      blue giant
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    theweeklychallenge: 252.1, 252.2, 253.1, 253.2, 254.1, 254.2, 255.1, 255.2
    project euler: 149, 051
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      Time Shelter. Georgi Gospodinov, Angela Rodel (tr.).
      Hunting Ghislaine. John Sweeney.
      Bullies and Saints: An Honest Look at the Good and Evil of Christian History. John Dickson.
      Death by Water. Kenzaburo Oe.
      The Infernal Library: On Dictators, the Books They Wrote, and Other Catastrophes of Literacy. Daniel Kalder.
      Thrilled to Death: How the Endless Pursuit of Pleasure Is Leaving Us Numb. Archibald D. Hart.
      Alien: The Rage War - 1: Predator: Incursion. Tim Lebbon.
      What Is Life?: With Mind and Matter and Autobiographical Sketches. Erwin Schrödinger.
      My View of the World. John Gribbin.
      The Perennial Philosophy. Aldous Huxley.
      Whatever Happened to the Metric System? How America Kept Its Feet. John Bemelmans Marciano.
      Gross Out. Duncan Ralston.
      Capitalism, Democracy, and Ralph's Pretty Good Grocery. Joehn Mueller.
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20240113
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    theweeklychallenge: 249.1, 249.2, 250.1, 250.2, 251.1, 251.2
    project euler: 047, 048, 049,
    aoc: 2308.1, 2309.1, 2309.2
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      The Nest. Gregory A. Douglas.
      Cameron's Closet. Gary Brandner.
      Unit 731 Testimony: Japan's Wartime Human Experimentation Program. Hal Gold.
      The Rape of Nanking. Iris Chang.
      Pop. 1280. Jim Thompson.
      The Neon Bible. John Kennedy Toole.
      Fascinomas. Clifton K. Meador.
      Zeroes. Chuck Wendig.
      True Medical Detective Stories. Clifton Meador.
      The Curious History of Dating: From Jane Austen to Tinder. Nichi Hodgson.
      The Sleepless. Victor Manibo.
      Hurricane Lizards and Plastic Squid: The Fraught and Fascinating Biology of Climate Change. Thor Hanson.
      The Adventures of Augie March. Saul Bellow.
      Sanatorium Under the Sign of the Hourglass. Bruno Schulz, Celina Wieniewska (tr.).

20231225
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      panty & stocking
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    theweeklychallenge: 246.1, 246.2, 247.2, 248.1, 248.2
    aoc: 2306.1, 2306.2, 2304.1, 2304.2
  lit
    nicereads +1
    preamble and rating system touch-up
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      Short Stories about Isolation and Loneliness. V.A.
      If He Hollers Let Him Go. Chester Himes.
      Blender Babies. Jon Athan.
      A Shining. Jon Fosse.
      White Trash Gothic: 2 - The Homecoming. Edward Lee.
      Under the Autumn Star. Knut Hamsun.
      The Fisherman. John Langan.
      The Trouble with Happiness. Tove Ditlevsen, Michael Favala Goldman (tr.).
      Hardtack and Coffee or, The Unwritten Story of Army Life. John Davis Billings.

20231210
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    31
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    theweeklychallenge: 245.1, 245.2, 246.1, 246.2, 200.1, 200.2, 201.1, 201.2, 202.1, 202.2, 203.1, 204.1, 204.2, 205.1, 205.2, 206.1, 206.2, 207.1, 207.2, 208.1, 208.2
    aoc: 2301.1, 2301.2, 2302.1, 2302.2
    project euler: 413, 005, 009, 012
  lit
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      The Imitation of Christ. Thomas à Kempis.
      The Rum Diary. Hunter S. Thompson.
      The Pier Falls and Other Stories. Mark Haddon.

20231126
  oneoffs
    30
  udr
    marxism 1. par fix
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    theweeklychallenge: 242.1, 242.2, 243.1, 243.2, 003.1, 003.2, 003.1, 003.2, 004.1, 004.2, 005.2, 006.1, 006.2, 007.1, 008.1, 008.2, 009.1, 010.1, 010.2, 011.1, 011.2, 012.1, 012.2, 013.1, 013.2, 244.1, 244.2, 015.1, 015.2, 016.1, 016.2
  lit
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      Body Art. Kristopher Triana.
      Cursed Bunny. Bora Chung, Anton Hur (tr.).
      The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows. John Koenig.
      The Juliette Society: 3 - The Mismade Girl. Sasha Grey.
      The Flowers of Buffoonery. Osamu Dazai, Sam Bett (tr.).
      When Nietzsche Wept. Irvin D. Yalom.
      The Schopenhauer Cure. Irvin D. Yalom.

20231112
  oneoffs
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      The Girl from the Other Side
  j
    my introduction to language
    theweeklychallenge: 239.2, 237.1, 236.1, 237.1, 237.2, 240.1, 240.2, 235.1, 241.1, 241.2
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      The Juliette Society. Sasha Grey.
      The Juliette Society: 2 - The Janus Chamber. Sasha Grey.
      Guantánamo Diary. Mohamedou Ould Slahi.
      The Apartment. Greg Baxter.
      To Kill and Kill Again: The Terrifying True Story of Montana's Baby-Faced Serial Sex Murderer. John Coston.
      Munich Airport. Greg Baxter.
      The Lost. Jack Ketchum.
      Episode Thirteen. Craig DiLouie.
      Full Brutal. Kristopher Triana.

20231029
  j
    theweeklychallenge: 001.1, 001.2, 002.1, 002.2, 238.1, 238.2, 214.1, 214.2, 215.1, 215.2, 235.1, 235.2, 148.1, 148.2, 197.1, 197.2, 239.1, 239.2, 236.1
  oneoffs
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  udr
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      God of Hungry Walls. Garrett Cook.
      Sleep Disorder. Jack Ketchum, Edward Lee.

20231012
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      The Porpoise. Mark Haddon.
      A Short Stay in Hell. Stephen L. Peck.
      John Wayne Cleaver: 1 - I Am Not a Serial Killer. Dan Wells.
      Frank Burly: 01 - The Time Machine Did It. John Swartzwelder.
      The Folly of Fools: The Logic of Deceit and Self-Deception in Human Life. Robert Trivers.

20230921
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      Alone: Orphaned on the Ocean. Richard D. Logan, Tere Fassbender Duperrault.
      A Cook's Tour: In Search of the Perfect Meal. Anthony Bourdain.

20230917
  oneoffs
    wormrot
    27
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    marxism update table1
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      Woom. Duncan Ralston.
      The Crowd: A Study of the Popular Mind. Gustave Le Bon.
      How to Sit. Thich Nhat Hanh.
      The Unfettered Mind: Writings from a Zen Master to a Master Swordsman. Takuan Soho, William Scott Wilson (tr.).
      The Librarianist. Patrick deWitt.
      The Rape of the Lock. Alexander Pope.
      Escape into Meaning: Essays on Superman, Public Benches, and Other Obsessions. Evan Puschak.
      Why Argument Matters. Lee Siegel.
      Pornography for the End of the World. Brendan Vidito.
      The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time. Mark Haddon.
      A Spot of Bother. Mark Haddon.

20230825
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    anime update
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      Despair. Vladimir Nabokov.
      The Dutch House. Ann Pratchett.
      The Resort. Bentley Little.
      Venus and Her Thugs. J.A. Nicholl.
      Venus in Furs. Leopold von Sacher-Masoch, Joachim Neugroschel (tr.).
      Gods of Venus. Richard S. Shaver.
      The Politically Incorrect Guide to Jihad. William Kilpatrick.
      Nausea. Jean-Paul Sartre.
      The Lonely Century: How to Restore Human Connection in a World That's Pulling Apart. Noreena Hertz.
      Raise High the Roof Beam, Carpenters and Seymour: An Introduction. J.D. Salinger.
      A Life in the Cinema. Mick Garris.
      The Gods of Atheism. Vincent Miceli.
      Whalefall. Daniel Kraus.
      The (Mis)Behavior of Markets: A Fractal View of Financial Turbulence. Benoit Mandelbrot.
      The Minotauress. Edward Lee.

20230719
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      Missing Out: In Praise of the Unlived Life. Adam Phillips. finally written
      Trapped Under the Sea: One Engineering Marvel, Five Men, and a Disaster Ten Miles into the Darkness. Neil Swidey.
      Maeve Fly. C.J. Leede.
      On the Third Day, They Die. Rhys Thomas.
      The Rokkaia Chronicles. Rhys Thomas.
      Escape from Camp 14: One Man's Remarkable Odyssey from North Korea to Freedom in the West. Blaine Harden.
      The Unseen Body: A Doctor's Journey Through the Hidden Wonders of Human Anatomy. Jonathan Reisman.
      Captives and Captors. Jon Athan.
      Alien Nation. Alan Dean Foster.
      STFU: The Power of Keeping Your Mouth Shut in an Endlessly Noisy World. Dan Lyons.
      Blind to Betrayal: Why We Fool Ourselves We Aren't Being Fooled. Jennifer Freyd, Pamela Birrell.
      The Abortion: An Historical Romance 1966. Richard Brautigan.
      Revenge of the Lawn. Richard Brautigan.
      Collected Short Stories. Richard Kadrey.
      So the Wind Won't Blow It All Away. Richard Brautigan.
      Greek Lessons. Han Kan.
      Abortion Arcade. Pierce Cameron.
      The Bighead. Edward Lee.
      Ripe. Sarah Rose Etter.
      Counterweight. Djuna, Anton Hur (tr.).

20230619
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      Red Dog. Louis de Bernières.
      Metamorphosis. Franz Kafka, Susan Bernofsky (tr.).
      Metamorphosis. Franz Kafka, Stan Corngold (tr.), V.A.
      How Documentaries Went Mainstream: A History, 1960-2022. Nora Stone.
      Attack of the Killer Tomatoes. Jeff Strand.
      Ultra-Processed People: The Food We Eat That Isn't Food and Why We Can't Stop. Chris van Tulleken.
      Happy-Go-Lucky. David Sedaris.
      Happy People Are Annoying. Josh Peck.
      Einstein's Fridge. Paul Sen.
      This Is Ear Hustle: Unflinching Stories of Everyday Prison Life. Nigel Poor, Earlonne Woods.
      Santa Steps Out. Robert Devereaux.
      Money: A Suicide Note. Martin Amis.
      The Reader. Bernhard Schlink.
      Maneater. Jon Athan.

20230601
  oneoffs
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    022
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      The Suicide Club. Rhys Thomas.
      The Gates of Janus. Ian Brady. finished

20230521
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    020
    021
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      The Second Coming. John Niven.  minor corrections
      Killers of the Flower Moon. David Grann.
      Snoop: What Your Stuff Says About You. Sam Gosling.
      Midshipman Bolitho. Alexander Kent.
      Half Empty. David Rakoff.
      Fuck You Very Much. Danny Wallace.
      Bad Motherfucker: The Life and Movies of Samuel L. Jackson, the Coolest Man in Hollywood. Gavin Edwards.
      While Time Remains: A North Korean Defector's Search for Freedom in America. Yeonmi Park.
      A Perfect Mess. Eric Abrahamson, David H. Freedman.
      Good Prose: The Art of Nonfiction. Tracy Kidder, Richard Todd.
      This Book Is Overdue!: How Librarians and Cybrarians Can Save Us All. Marilyn Johnson.
      Craigslist Confessional: A Collection of Secrets from Anonymous Strangers. Helena Dea Bala.
      Betrayal In Blood. Michael Benson.
      The Blooding. Joseph Wambaugh.
      Blood Dreams. Jack MacLane.
      Abandon. Blake Crouch.
      The Suicide Club: You Are Not Alone. Matt Shaw.
      The Suicide Motor Club. Christopher Buehlman.
      The Suicide Club. Gayle Wilson.
      The Way of Chuang Tzu. Thomas Merton.

20230515
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20230506
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    018
    018 addendum
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      Girls of a Certain Age. Maria Adelmann.
      The Gates of Janus. Ian Brady.
      The Second Coming. John Niven.

20230429
  oneoffs
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    017
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      Popisho. Leone Ross. addendum
      Travels in Siberia. Ian Frazier.
      10 Books that Screwed Up the World: And 5 Others That Didn't Help. Benjamin Wiker.
      The Third Generation. Chester Himes.
      The Stainless Steel Rat. Harry Harrison.
      The Devil's Dictionary. Ambrose Bierce.
      Tao Te Ching. Lao Tzu, Ursula K. LeGuin (tr.).

20230425
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202304??
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      Tomorrow and Tomorrow and Tomorrow. Gabrielle Zevin.
      Against Interpretation, and Other Essays. Susan Sontag.
      I'm Glad My Mom Died. Jennette McCurdy.
      The Tatami Galaxy. Morimi Tomihiko, Emily Balistrieri (tr.).
      Popisho. Leone Ross.
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20230415
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      Coin Locker Babies. Ryu Murakami.
  oneoffs
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    compositions
      0304

20230407
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  oneoffs
    010 slight change
    011
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    on masculinity

20230331
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      Red Dragon. Thomas Harris.
      The Silence of the Lambs. Thomas Harris.
  oneoffs
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20230324
  oneoffs
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    009
  udr
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      The Babysitter Lives. Stephen Graham Jones.
      How to Be Eaten. Maria Adelmann.

20230319
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    on coping

20230317
  oneoffs
    007 some rewriting
    008
  lit
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      Nothing But Blackened Teeth. Cassandra Khaw.
      Consumed. David Cronenberg. addendum

20230312
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      City of Orange. David Yoon.
      Socialism: The Failed Idea That Never Dies. Kristian Niemietz.
  oneoffs
    double o seven, the continuationing

20230309
  udr
    valuation
    on (my) depression last par addenda
    on aging last par finished (kind of)
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      A Different Class Of Murder. Laura Thompson.
      44 Years in Darkness: A True Story of Madness, Tragedy, and Shattered Love. Sylvia Shults.
      City of Orange. David Yoon.

20230307
  udr
    on aging
    one-offs split from udr
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      The Last Storm. Tim Lebbon.
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20230305
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      The Snakehead. Patrick Radden Keefe.
  html/css
    nav's switched to grid

20230303
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      007
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      The Courage to Be Disliked. Ichiro Kishimi, Fumitake Koga.
      After Sound: Toward a Critical Music. Douglas Barrett.
      The Morning of the Magicians. Louis Pauwels, Jacques Bergier.

20230224
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20230205
  lit
    added to nicereads
    remarks
      Tristessa. Jack Kerouac.
      Cats Have No Lord. Will Shetterly.

20230121
  lit
    preamble pars 1,2 touch-up
    remarks
      The Morning of the Magicians. Louis Pauwels, Jacques Bergier.

20230115
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      Black Box Thinking: Why Most People Never Learn From Their Mistakes But Some Do. Matthew Syed.
      Wake. Shelly Burr.
      Yama: The Pit. Alexandra Kuprin.
      Kepler's Laws. Jay Werkheiser.
      The 8th. Matt Shaw.
      Cultish: The Language of Fanaticism. Amanda Montell.

20221231
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      In Praise of Good Bookstores. Jeff Deutsch.
      United States of Fear: How America Fell Victim to a Mass Delusional Psychosis. Mark McDonald.
      The Stranger in the Woods: The Extraordinary Story of the Last True Hermit. Michael Finkel.

20221217
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      Tender Is the Flesh. Agustina Bazterrica, Sarah Moses (tr.).
      Darkness. John Saul.
      Hopscotch. Julio Cortazar.
      Trout Fishing in America. Richard Brautigan.
      How to Talk About Books You Haven't Read. Pierre Bayard.
      No Longer Human. Osamu Dazai.

20221126
  lit
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      John Dies at the End: 4 - If This Book Exists, You're in the Wrong Universe. Jason Pargin.
      Irrational Man: A Study in Existential Philosophy. William Barrett.
      Unmask Alice: LSD, Satanic Panic, and the Imposter Behind the World's Most Notorious Diaries. Rick Emerson.
      The Nolan Variations: The Movies, Mysteries, and Marvels of Christopher Nolan. Tom Shone.
      The Social Costs of Pornography: A Collection of Papers. James R. Stoner Jr., Donna M. Hughes (ed.).
      Go Ask Alice. Beatrice Sparks.
      The Street of Crocodiles. Bruno Schultz.
      Pickle for the Knowing Ones. Timothy Dexter.
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        51. Patrick O'Leary. rewrite of unintelligibles
        John Dies at the End: 4 - If This Book Exists, You're in the Wrong Universe. Jason Pargin. addendum

202211--
  scripts finally do correct amount of indentation EBERYGER, yes, spurdo, yes, indeed-y
  nice-ish blockquotes
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      Flicker. Theodore Roszak.
      My Dark Vanessa. Kate Elizabeth Russel.
      John Dies at the End: 4 - If This Book Exists, You're in the Wrong Universe. Jason Pargin.

20221028
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  moar books, read more

20221023
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      Dawn of a Nazi Moon: 1. Douglas MacKinnon.
      Mindreader. David J. Lieberman.
      A Journey to the Northern Ocean. Samuel Hearne.
      The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows. John Koenig.
      Burnt Tongues. V.A., Chuck Palahniuk (ed.), Richard Thomas (ed.), Dennis Widmyer (ed.).

20220922
  udr
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  lit
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      The Truth About Crypto. Ric Edelman.
      Digital Minimalism. Cal Newport.
      Estrogeneration: How Estrogenics Are Making You Fat, Sick, and Infertile. Anthony G. Jay.
      Surveillance State: Inside China's Quest to Launch a New Era of Social Controll. Josh Chin, Liza Lin.
      Party Games. Jon Athan.
      58 Minutes. Walter Wager.
      51. Patrick O'Leary.

20220908
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    more book, what else could if fucking be, why in sticky fuck did i actually go through the trouble of writing a script to read and format this changelog, which NOBODY READS< WHY WOULD YOU FUCKING READ THIS, FUCKINGGLOWINTHEDARKCIANIGGERS!!@``#!!!!1
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    css n shit

20220808
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      Gotrek and Felix: 06 - Vampireslayer. William King.
      Reality and Dreams. Muriel Spark.
      Stick a Flag in It: 1000 Years of Bizarre History from Britain and Beyond. Arran Lomas.
      Vector Borne. Michael McBride.
      The Handyman. Bentley Little.
  j
    project euler solutions

20220724
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      Gotrek and Felix: 01 - Trollslayer William King.
      Gotrek and Felix: 03 - Daemonslayer William King.
      Gotrek and Felix: 04 - Dragonslayer William King.
      Brutal Kunnin. Mike Brooks.
  j
    sudoku solver code

20220719
  lit
    remarks
      Kitchen Confidential: Adventures in the Culinary Underbelly. Anthony Bourdain.
      The Psychology of Totalitarianism. Mattias Desmet.
      The Girl Next Door. Jack Ketchum.
      Offspring. Jack Ketchum.
      Atheist Answers: Rational Responses to Religious Questions. David G. McAfee.
      Everybody Is Wrong About God. James A. Lindsay.
20220704
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    remarks
       Early Retirement Extreme: A Philosophical and Practical Guide to Financial Independence. Jacob Lund Fisker.
       What Is a Woman?: One Man's Journey to Answer the Question of a Generation. Matt Walsh.

20220614
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    remarks
      Of Goat and Gods. Richard S. Shaver.
      Leviathan: Ghost Rig. Lucas Pederson.
      Buried in a Good Book. Tamara Berry.
      All's Well. Mona Awad.
      The Men Who Stare at Goats. Jon Ronson.
      The Phelebotomist. Chris Panatier.
      Permanent Record. Edward Snowden.
      Fleisch ist mein Gemüse. Heinz Strunk.
      Ancient Evenings. Norman Mailer.

20220601
  udr
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    Age of Cage: Four Decades of Hollywood Through One Singular Career. Keith Phipps.
    Horror in the Woods. Lee Mountford.
    They're a Weird Mob. John O'Grady, Nino Culotta.
    From Seas to Stormy Seas. V.A., Lawrence Block (ed.).
    All the Lonely People. Mike Gayle.
    The Netherwell Horror. Lee Mountford.
    Tormented. Lee Mountford.
    Stringers. Chris Panatier.
    The Controlled Demolition of the American Empire. Jeff Berwick, Charlie Robinson.

20220517
  udr
    ?
  lit
    remarks
      The Jealousy Man and Other Stories. Jo Nesbo.
      Madness at Madison Mall. Jon Athan.
      A Biography of the Pixel. Alvy Ray Smith.
      The Hellbound Heart. Clive Barker.
      Slouching Towards Gomorrah: Modern Liberalism and American Decline. Robert H. Bork.
      Can Fish Count?: What Animals Reveal About Our Uniquely Mathematical Minds. Brian Butterworth.
      Contact. Carl Sagan.

20220430
  lit
    remarks
      The Cat Who Saved Books. Sosuke Natsukawa.
      The Midnight Library. Matt Haig.
      Old School. Tobias Wolff.
      Ms. Vengeance. Jon Athan.
      Possessed. Thomas Allen.

20220417
  lit
    remarks
      Insulin - The Crooked Timber: A History from Thick Brown Muck to Wall Street Gold. Kersten T. Hall.
      The Island. Ragnar Jonasson.
      Anomaly Flats. Clayton Smith.
      Music for Torching. A.M. Homes.

20220327
  lit
    remarks
      In Praise of Slowness: Challenging the Cult of Speed. Carl Honoré.
      Smashed in the USSR: Fear, Loathing and Vodka on the Steppes. Caroline Walton, Ivan Petrov.
      The Camp of the Saints. Jean Raspail, Norman R. Shapiro (tr.).

20220322
  lit
    remarks
      Industrial Society and Its Future. Theodore J. Kaczynski.

20220306
  udr
    some project euler problem fixed and float nav added

20220227
  udr
    j (and programming?) separated
  html/css
    booklog remarks on hover
    right-aligned, vertically centered, all-row-aligned numbering; fu-king fi-nal-ly

20220220
  lit
    remarks
      A Woman in Berlin. Marta Hillers.
      Molloy. Samuel Beckett.
      I Must Betray You. Ruta Sepetys.

20220213
  lit
    remarks
      A Place So Wicked. Patrick Reuman.
      John Wayne Gacy: Defending a Monster. Sam Amirante, Danny Broderick.
      Heliogabalus; or, the Crowned Anarchist. Artonin Artaud.
      Chimera. Michael McBride.
      The Power of Body Language:An Ex-FBI Agent's System for Speed-Reading People. Joe Navarro.
      People Who Eat Darkness. Richard Lloyd Parry.
      Cannibal Jungle. Jon Athan.
      To Kill A Droid. Jon Athan.

20220206
  html/css
    actually not bad tr highlighting, for once

20220204
  lit
    interesting non-literary reads

20220130
  udr
    compositions
      there are no nice things - actually uploaded this time, 2 parts/mvmts finished
  html/css
    colors, somewhat
    booklog label-checkbox placement for keyboard-only navigation
    booklog top/bottom anchors
  lit
    rating system reworded for clarity
  udr
    minor rewording for clarify
    compositions' scores placement
    j's pre code overflow (in webkit, at least)

20211221
  udr
    software i use
  lit
    remarks
      Tick. Peter Sotos.
      Fatherland. Robert Harris.
      A Place So Wicked. Patrick Reuman.

20211119
  lit
    remarks
      Ghost. Piers Anthony.

20211107
  lit
    remarks
      The Perfect Police State: An Undercover Odyssey into China's Terrifying Surveillance Dystopia of the Future. Geoffrey Cain.
      Consumed. David Cronenberg.

20211029
  udr
    compositions
      BFP
  lit
    remarks
      Under the Volcano. Malcolm Lowry.
      San Fransicko: Why Progressives Ruin Cities. Michael Shellenberger.

20211020
  lit
    remarks
      Bowling Alone: The Collapse and Revival of American Community. Robert D. Putnam⸻redone
  udr
    j
      euler, sudoku solver soon

20211011
  lit
    remarks
      You See the Monster: A Modern Horror Novel. Luke Smitherd.

20211004
  lit
    remarks
      The Genetically Engineered Pandemic. Peter Tremblay.
      A State of Fear: How the UK Government Weaponised Fear During the COVID-19 Pandemic. Laura Dodsworth.
      Alien: Isolation. Keith DeCandido.
      The House of a Hundred Whispers. Graham Masterton.
      The October List. Jeffery Deaver.
      The Naked and the Dead. Norman Mailer.
      Anti-Tech Revolution: Why and How. Theodore J. Kaczynski⸻redone.

20210927
  lit
    remarks
      Alien: Alien3. Alan Dean Foster.
      Alien: Resurrection. A. C. Crispin.
      Bowling Alone: The Collapse and Revival of American Community. Robert D. Putnam.
      How to Have Impossible Conversations: A Very Practical Guide. Peter Boghossian, James A. Lindsay.
  udr
    compositions
      5 - old, but had forgotten to put it up

20210921
  lit
    remarks
      Excellent Sheep: The Miseducation of the American Elite. William Deresiewicz.
      Enjoy the Decline. Aaron Clarey.

20210830
  lit
    remarks
      The Curse of High IQ. Aaron Clarey.
      Alien: 4 - Out of the Shadows. Tim Lebbon.
      Alien: 5 - River of Pain. Christopher Golden.
      Alien: 6 - Sea of Sorrows. James A. Moore.
      How to Solve a Murder: True Stories from a Life in Forensic Medicine. Derek Tremain, Pauline Tremain.
      Arachnoid. Michael Cole.
      The Illuminatus!: 1 - The Eye in the Pyramid. Robert A. Wilson, Robert Shea.
  html/css
    margin note implementation
    nav improved
    hrules to top of article nixed

20210822
  lit
    remarks
      A History of Heavy Metal. Andrew O'Neill.
      The Power of the Powerless. Vaclav Havel.
      The Curse of High IQ. Aaron Clarey.
  html/css
    fucking finally got table striping to work with class; how? some-fucking-how people agree to disallowed chaining of :nth-child and class or :not selectors; why? IDUNNO BUT IM ANGRY. last 3h fixing all scripts, and how many more beforehand before I knew this vital piece of information; it's not that I was doing sth wrong, no, it's fucking P E O P L E that ruin everything, FUCKING FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

20210814
  lit
    remarks
      A History of Heavy Metal. Andrew O'Neill.
      Someone Who Will Love You in All Your Damaged Glory. Raphael Bob-Waksberg.
      Omnipotent Government: The Rise of the Total State and Total War. Ludwig von Mises.
  html/css
    table jitter was due to content fit, but font size increase on hover fucked shit up; width of most important cell fixed

20210808
  lit
    remarks
      Pop. 1280. Jim Thompson.
  udr
    j 44 45 46
  html/css
    variable column widths, less classes, thicker hr
  spelling!

20210802
  lit
    remarks
      The Art of Her Deal: The Untold Story of Melania Trump. Mary Jordan.
      Unmasked: Inside Antifa's Radical Plan to Destroy Democracy. Andy Ngo.
      How to Read and Why. Harold Bloom.
      The North Water. Ian McGuire.
  udr
    ondiet considered finished

20210726
  udr
    j redid solutions presentation
    j 100
  lit
    carrots... easy on the books

20210719
  lit
    remarks
      127 Hours - Between a Rock and a Hard Place. Aron Ralston.
      Touching the Void: The Harrowing First-Person Account of One Man's Miraculous Survival. Joe Simpson.
      Death in Venice. Thomas Mann, Michael Henry Heim (tr.).

20210712
  lit
    remarks
      David Kepesh: 1 - The Breast. Philip Roth.
      The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*ck. Mark Manson.
      Alien: 2: Covenant. Alan Dean Foster.

20210708
  lit
    remarks
      Kill Someone. Luke Smitherd.
      The Overcoat and Other Tales. Nikolai Gogol.
  udr
    j

20210705
  lit
    remarks
      The Shadow Party: How George Soros, Hillary Clinton, and Sixties Radicals Seized Control of the Democratic Party. David Horowitz, Richard Poe.
      Wasp Factory. Iain Banks.
      Robert Hunter: 09 - Gallery of the Dead. Chris Carter.
    rating system description refined
    4. column padding to simulate alignment at decimal point

20210628
  lit
    remarks
      Lamb: The Gospel According to Biff, Christ's Childhood Pal. Christopher Moore.
      Robert Hunter: 06 - An Evil Mind. Chris Carter.
      Version Zero. David Yoon.
      Zeno's Conscience. Italo Svevo.
      Robert Hunter: 07 - I Am Death. Chris Carter.
      Clown World Chronicles: The human primate in the 21st Century. Vince McLeod.

20210621
  lit
    remarks
      Robert Hunter: 04 - The Death Sculptor. Chris Carter.
      Robert Hunter: 05 - One By One. Chris Carter.
      The Big Lie: Exposing the Nazi Roots of the American Left. Dinesh D'Souza.
      Superforecasting: The Art and Science of Prediction. Philip Tetlock, Dan Gardner.
      soooo many typos

20210613
  lit
    remarks
      Robert Hunter: 01 - The Crucifix Killer. Chris Carter.
      Robert Hunter: 02 - Executioner. Chris Carter.
      Robert Hunter: 03 - The Night Stalker. Chris Carter.
      The Day of the Donald: Trump Trumps America!. Andrew Shaffer.
  html/css
    we variables now.
  index
    wording, spelling

20210609
  lit
    remarks
      Noise: A Flaw in Human Judgment. Daniel Kahneman, Olivier Sibony, Cass R. Sunstein.
      Why Do Men Have Nipples? Hundreds of Questions You'd Only Ask a Doctor After Your Third Martini. Mark Leyner, Billy Goldberg.
      Books Do Furnish a Life. Richard Dawkins.
      Devil's Chaplain. Richard Dawkins.
      The Dead Husband. Carter Wilson.
      Antifragile - Things That Gain from Disorder. Nassim Nicholas Taleb.
      Against Nature (Against the Grain). Joris-Karl Huysmans.
      Atomic Habits- An Easy and Proven Way to Build Good Habits and Break Bad Ones. James Clear.
      Robert Hunter: 08 - The Caller. Chris Carter.
  udr
    ondiet
  html/css
    booklog focused row and review legibility addressed
    wrote a script, that 1, sorts references; 2. replaces labels for anchors with proper numbering; biber and bibtex made obsolete

20210604
  lit
    review
      The Victory of Reason: How Christianity Led to Freedom, Capitalism, and Western Success. Rodney Stark.
  html/css
    details marker colored as clickable

20210601
  udr
    on diet
  html/css
    new and improved nav! now with padding! call 1-800-PADMEDADDY to get yours today
    book remarks/remarks now inline, goodbye tooltips..?
    individually expandable dates for changelog
    table column width fixed
    right-align booklog counter - finally
  lit
    extra paragraph pertaining to rating system used
    remarks
      Stop Saving the Planet!: An Environmentalist Manifesto. Jenny Price.
      Breaking the News: Exposing the Establishment Media's Hidden Deals and Secret Corruption. Alex Marlow.
      Blood Sugar. Daniel Kraus.

20210526
  lit
    remarks
      A Man. Keichiro Hirano.
      Fears of a Setting Sun The Disillusionment of America's Founders. Dennis C. Rasmussen.
  udr
    realizing you
      improve wording, clarify
  html/css
    dates up to push squeezed
    reverting to div: article reduces header sizes for some reason

20210525
  udr
    realizing you...
  lit
    remarks
      The Troop. Nick Cutter.
      Dirty Thirty. Asa Akira.
      The Only Good Indians. Dennis C. Rasmussen.
  udr
    j
  html/css
    orphan and widow settings included
    transitions on hover - unconvincingly groping for shit to fill this shit day with instead of finishing the begun article

20210522
  index
    expandable, inline, sure-to-fucking-work changelog; that damn fucking script, fuck me i hate sed; hail zsh and printf
  udr
    compositions
      score pdf's
  lit
    remarks
      Mirrorshades. Bruce Sterling.
      Children of Time. Adrian Tchaikovsky.
      An Ancient Enemy. Olan Thorensen.
  index
    redirection working again
  links to sites
  html/css
    actually, fuck your stupid html5 u tag specs

20210518
  lit
    remarks
      A Confederacy of Dunces. John Kennedy Toole.
  udr
    j
      solutions
  html/css
    inline changelog

20210516
  udr
    j
    compositions
      for klara text
  lit
    remarks
      The Family Next Door: The Heartbreaking Imprisonment of the Thirteen Turpin Siblings and Their Extraordinary Rescue. John Glatt.
      Certainty. Victor Bevine.
      Empire of the Sun. J. G. Ballard.
      Happy Endings: The Tales of a Meaty-Breasted Zilch. Jim Norton.
      Ego Is the Enemy. Ryan Holiday.
      Dark Fantasies. Chris Morgan (ed.).
  index
    wording
  udr
    on context
      first par wording
  html/css
    classes and less inline styling
    u and s deprecrated - what the fuck, tidy?
    slightly better hyphenation

20210514
  udr
    depression
  fix
    spelling, punctuation

20210513
  license added
  udr
    compositions

20210512
  udr
    on (my) depression
  udr
    softwareiuse
    whatiplay
  lit
    books
    remarks

20210511
  udr
    one-offs
      001
    whatiplay
  udr
    on context
    software i use
  html/css
    inline headers

20210505
  udr
    j
  udr
    software i use
    on context
  lit
    remarks
      American Gods: The Tenth Anniversary Edition. Neil Gaiman.
  html/css
    better top button
    bottom rules now link to top of article
    colors

20210501
  udr
    on context
  lit
    preamble
  udr
    softwareiuse

20210429
  lit
    remarks

20210427
  lit
    preamble
    remarks
      American Gods: The Tenth Anniversary Edition. Neil Gaiman.
  udr
    text

20210426
  index
  lit
    remarks
      The Art of Literature. Arthur Schopenhauer.
  udr
    on appreciation
      another par, still unfinished?
  html/css
    crude #top span added

20210424
  udr
    software i use
    on appreciation
  index
    text
  html/css
    header
    lang add for hyphenation to work
    booklog
    3.col interletter spacing
    4.col alignment at .
    margins, padding, colors redone; misc

20210422
  lit
    html+css-only unread filter also regarding current filter value remarks

20210421
  lit
    more remarks from yore
  html/css
    hyphenation
    text justification
    right-align on css counters vertiginously bothersome to get right

20210420
  lit
    reviews/remarks are finally up; after toil, soil, toil, break down cry and roil - fuck perl, fuck sed, fuck awk - all fucking hail zsh

20210419
  js
    table filter, unread toggle
  html/css
    polish

20210418
  html/css
    started the site, made the table, (re)wrote scripts to sculpt .tex files into html table

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